Sunset

I'm sitting outside tonight watching the sun set over the water.  It is absolutely beautiful. I can't help but remember dad saying that that is what you both did the night before you passed away. You were so excited for us to come here and I understand why.  How I wish you were here.

I feel like I should be crying more, or feeling more.  But right now I feel mostly numb. I still don't believe you are gone. Even after seeing you, having your ashes. It doesn't seem real. I know you are, but I still don't believe it. Maybe I can feel you around me. I don't think I will ever come to terms with you being gone.

I love you mom. Hope you were enjoying the sunset with me..